malam nie malam last aku tido on my beloved bed eva
hati sayu..i’m so not looking forward to go back home tomo [29/12/05-10.50am]
not that i’ve forgotten my own place or root..
bukannya aku lupe parents and family yg sentiasa nantikan kepulangan aku
bukannya aku nk tukar warganegara aku…
tapi aku suka menjadi seorang perantau..merantau di merata ceruk
aku suke to be a foreigner in this English land…i’m proud to be one of the Malaysians here!
i have my ups and downs
but those make me become a better person
those make me stronger and open my eyes even wider
i see world bigger than it seems..i can understand views from many different perspectives..
i’ve learnt to survive..to be dumped in dead end..and never give up..
these experiences make me prepare to overcome any challenges in the future, insyaallah…and all the knowledge that i’ve gained here..i’ll practise it for my teaching. there are loads more that can be improved in terms of English teaching in Malaysia..a lots..which i hope the improvement that my friends and i will do, will be supported…
*sebak*
it’s difficult…
because it has been two years ive been really independent person
i made my own choices..i made decisions..
i worked things out, i use freedom given in any way that i think sensible
i know the outcomes of any actions..i had to face em as an ‘adult’
of course friends always support me
T.H.A.N.K.S. for everything..u know who u are!
i’m glad that i’m here with cool people
no problems..and we all like a big family..
on top of everything, i’m sad to leave this place because of you all… our relationship that we’ve built,
really meant it!
one of my friends once said
"everyone is scared, to back to reality"
yeah..actually back to Malaysia is like back to reality
not that here is like a fairytale
but…
back at home, there are loads more to be considered…
culture, norms, rules, beliefs, values, regulations, people
i’m gonna miss this place
i’ll try apply good things that i’ve developed here
their professionalism especially which is still really rare in Malaysia..their respect to others, their ways of approching people, the choose of words, even how they always say "cheers/ thank you" or "excuse me", those small things that always being neglected in our society…
i’ll miss this small cute house
with an island right in front of my room, where we always stars gazing…
i’ll miss the weather..this peacefulness every time i open my curtain..
fresh and cold air….lastly, i’m gonna miss the educational system here… the learning process here…
cuurent song [ Field of Innocent by Evanescence]
